When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So what the hell, leap.
~ Cynthia Heimel
I am grateful for the spirit of daring, the courage to risk failure and leap wildly into the unknown...to answer yes when asked: "are you up for a challenge?", without even waiting to hear what the challenge is. Which is what I found myself doing the other night, as a matter of fact. Although, as it turns out, this could well be one of those leaps which lands on the idiot side of the line! (In which case I'm blaming the idiot who got it in her head I can memorize a script!) I'm pretty sure I can dig up enough of an inner actor to play a role in an upcoming service, but...memorization??? That is so not one of my hidden talents...or is it? Apparently I'm about to find out! :)
Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.
~ T. S. Eliot
What more expansive feeling is there than shaking off the fear that holds us back, and allowing ourselves to risk going too far, to ascend to new heights where our souls can soar, where our hearts are profoundly touched, where our lives may be forever changed.
To dare is to lose one's footing momentarily. To not dare is to lose oneself.
~ Soren Kierkegaard
We may indeed lose our footing momentarily, but we need to trust that solid ground is just a footstep away. This reminds me of a story I told to a friend a little while ago, when sharing a glimpse into my own psyche...
"Just ran up to the library to get a book. The way there is uphill, I've got my new boots on, I'm pumped with happy thoughts, so stride up the hill full tilt, passing people as I go. Get the book, head back out...oops, little slip on the stairs, the sidewalks are greasy, I'm heading downhill now, my new boots aren't nearly as good going down as they were coming up. So I slow into baby steps, make my way tentatively down the slope to the bottom, where I find myself once again on solid ground when I hit Barrington Street...I immediately resume my confident strides and leap up the stairs into my building.
My security/insecurity is just like that...a slight slip can send me into that tentative space until I find my footing again, at which point I generally flip right back into a confident space. So when I start acting hesitantly or whatever, you can either step away and wait for me to find solid ground on my own...or take my hand for a second and speed me on my way. Either way, I WILL get back on solid ground, just a matter of how long it will take me. Not sure if that analogy helps you *get* me a bit better or not, but thought I'd pass it along..."
I can't say I would always want to be on solid ground though...it's often the journey through insecurity that shines a light of understanding for me, and helps me to get to the root of deeper issues in my heart. There is also something freeing and empowering in sharing my insecurities...scary though it is to open myself to vulnerability. Allowing ourselves to be vulnerable with another person is scary. But daring to let someone know our whole self - fears and flaws and all - is a profound statement of trust. Far easier to show only our brave side, our strong side, our in-control side...it takes a leap of faith and trust and love to show our vulnerable side. Making that leap is to allow those close to us to fully love us in return, to know and love and trust all of us, and not just the part of us with our best foot forward.
My daughter Sara painted this watercolour a few years ago, I love the abandonment of the leaping figure:
As always, each Friday I invite you to click over to Diana Strinati Baur's blog and check out the other Gratitude Friday Club blogs...