I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be. ~ Douglas Adams
I am grateful for ending up at a place of new beginnings. As I wrote here earlier in the week, I am feeling drawn to ministry. Drawn in a way that feels impossible to ignore, drawn in a way that makes my heart beat with hope and wonder and amazement, drawn in a way that makes my soul sing and my spirit dance.
I must admit my heart is also full of butterflies because, let's face it, making such a huge leap at the age of 45, and from a comfortable and secure lifestyle, is a hell of a scary prospect! (A little piece of me is saying "yikes woman, what are you thinking??!") Of course, feeling drawn to ministry does not mean it will work out for me, but right now, I am filled with optimism and hope. And I am also floating along on a river of support and encouragement from family and friends...support that is, so far, unanimous.
Dave, as I mentioned, believes I can do anything. Sara said she feels I would be a good minister. When I told Moira yesterday that I was interested in ministry, her eyes widened, her face broke into smile and she said "REALLY? That would be so cool, you'd be good at that." My sister Lynn said she had already felt that I was considering this possibility, and she thinks it would be good for me and for any potential parishioners I might have. Friends like Jane (whose question prompted my voicing this feeling out loud), and Karl (who tells me I light up when talking of my church and faith journey) have offered encouragement as well. And my best friend Valerie (who of course, as I should have known, does not think it is a ridiculous idea after all), had something like this to say: "Well my dear friend, I have seen you travelling this road now and watched God leading you in a very particular direction but have been waiting to see if you also have had this sense. It is perhaps time to give consideration to asking for a discernment team to be set up. This is so exciting!!!"
She also gave me a brief outline of the United Church's discernment process which, as I told her, I had already looked up myself a while ago. More info is found on the UCC website if you're interested in the process...although if (when!) I do take that next step, I expect you'll learn all you ever wanted to know and more, since I'll be sharing my journey on my blog, I'm sure. And I am definitely feeling moved to take that next step and perhaps begin an amazing journey down a whole new path...
God, why do I storm heaven for answers that are already in my heart? Every grace I need has already been given me. Oh, lead me to the Beyond within.
~ Macrina Wieherkehr
As always, each Friday I invite you to click over to Diana Strinati Baur's blog and check out the other Gratitude Friday Club blogs...