In all of the whirlwind of the last 10 days, one good thing is rising on the horizon, we're still heading to Italy in 11 more days. It was the first thing the doctor said after giving us the diagnosis, "You're still going to Italy next week."
It was the last thing on Chris's mind. It was the last thing on Andrew's mind when I told him too. But it wasn't the last thing on my mind. Strange, but I think the most frustrating thing about my "situation" at the moment is that it's robbed me of my ability to plan for the next few months anyway. I don't know what we're going to do for Thanksgiving. I don't know if I'll be able to do any "holiday" celebrations. And worse still, I don't know if I'll be able to go to Disney with the family to watch Chris do the Goofy challenge or to Paso Robles for the Slow Bowl. It's the not knowing and the not being able to plan that frustrates the heck out of me.
So I want this trip.
I know, once I meet with the as yet to be named oncologist, will put the final plan together. And then, at least, I'll have a plan, a timeline, and can hopefully start to plan things again and according to Dr. M. that should all be in place before we leave, which will make traveling easier. I know she's right.
But for now, at least, I think I'm going to take some time today and focus on the next trip and keep praying for clean lymp nodes on Monday. I'm starting to get that one day at a time thing.
Other Thinks (7)
I was wondering that might happen to your plans for Italy but did not have the heart to ask. I am SOOO happy that the trip is still a go and hope that you will have all good answers and results BEFORE you embark on it. Good thoughts and vibes still comin' your way. All the best!!
Posted by Dorit | October 25, 2008 8:23 AM
Posted on October 25, 2008 08:23
You bet you are, girl!
That's a given, I'd say...nothing better for the soul than a little Italy with a little gelato thrown in for sweeteners!
Thanks for letting us know what's happening in your world these days.
Huge hugs,
Brenda
Posted by Brenda | October 25, 2008 12:17 PM
Posted on October 25, 2008 12:17
Kim-I hadn't been on your blog all week, and just read your story. I am so sorry to hear about this, and will say a prayer for clean lymph nodes also and good health. Take care of yourself, enjoy Italy, and know that we're all here if we can somehow help.
Posted by Cindy Ruth | October 25, 2008 3:44 PM
Posted on October 25, 2008 15:44
Hi Kim, I am sending you my love, and hopes for clean lymph nodes...Praying for very "early stage" reading too... Stage 0 would be great! Take care and ejoy Italy!
Posted by Eden | October 25, 2008 4:40 PM
Posted on October 25, 2008 16:40
I'm also glad you are able to still take this trip. Italy is so good for the soul!
Posted by girasoli | October 26, 2008 12:32 AM
Posted on October 26, 2008 00:32
Yes, you go and have a wonderful trip - I'm glad that you all will do this. You know what, have that extra gelato,but above all just enjoy everything.
Posted by Marcia | October 26, 2008 11:30 AM
Posted on October 26, 2008 11:30
As Girasoli says, Italy is sooooo good for the soul (and the spirit and the mind and body, etc.)
So is having a plan -- I need to always have plans, so I understand how you feel. Focusing right now on your plans for Italy makes a lot of sense.
In the meantime, I've got my fingers crossed for you, that your lymph nodes are clear.
Posted by sandrac | October 26, 2008 7:09 PM
Posted on October 26, 2008 19:09