I've always told my girls that bravery isn't the absence of fear, it's acting in the face of fear. Going through this though, I'm not so sure. I want to amend that definition. I think bravery is acting in the face of fear when you have a choice not to.
I guess that's why I don't think of me as brave. Really, what choice do I have? Are there women out there who don't have the cancer removed? Women who opt not to go through chemo and/or radiation? With two children and a husband, do I have that choice? Not really.
I think acting in the face of fear, when no other choice exists, is surviving. Maybe that's what I am, a survivor. According to Dictionary.com:
Survivor: a person who continues to function or prosper in spite of opposition, hardship, or setbacks.
Survive: To carry on despite hardships or trauma; persevere; To live, persist, or remain usable through.
Yes, just a survivor. That's all I want to be.