I said many months ago that a family matter had settled and I was finally done with four years of drama, pain and exhaustion. Well, I was. We were. And then one person, one terribly destructive person, reneged on their word and the needless drama has continued. This has meant another trip back east, more legal fees, more time out of work and more stress. Some people simply don't know how to get out of their own way. It is both infuriating and tragic all at once.
Ah, the unpredictability of life.
Patience. I have learned to have far more of it over these past few years. I have learned to let go of expectations on many levels and now live my life without the thought that some magical thing will happen that will bring me wealth, happiness or love. I have grown from this process. In some quiet and yet profound way I am grateful for this process. I now know that I must create these things on my own. We all must. We are owed nothing. We are our own knights in shining armour, our own saints to pray to and our own investor checking accounts.
Patience. I am learning...
Comments (4)
Oh Kathy, I'm sorry dear. I hope all goes well my sista!
Posted by Deb R | September 12, 2008 5:40 AM
Posted on September 12, 2008 05:40
I was just checking in to see how you are doing. I'm sorry, so sorry for the continuation of the east coast drama. I'm hopeful with your attitude and your strength that this will pass with a fortunate outcome for you. Hang in there girl, I'm sending you lots of good vibes and much Light and Love!
Posted by Barb Cabot | September 12, 2008 9:24 AM
Posted on September 12, 2008 09:24
You found the secret. Always forward :-)
Posted by Maria | September 12, 2008 12:30 PM
Posted on September 12, 2008 12:30
You mean it's not over yet?! What the %*@#?! (I'm hoping to make you laugh in spite of all the crapola!) :)
Posted by Tara Sieling | September 15, 2008 8:08 PM
Posted on September 15, 2008 20:08